My creation — NEEDY something-or-other — is becoming an anime.
I’m credited as the original creator, writer, and supervisor.
An anime is a massive festival, far too big for one person to carry.
It comes with countless struggles and karmic burdens.
Still, for what it’s worth, I’m on good terms with both Aniplex and Yostar Pictures.
As long as you know that, that’s really all that matters.
Of course, there’s bound to be speculation and confusion,
but the truth is simple: we all got along and made a good anime.
That’s all there is to it.
Everyone worked hard together, and if you watch it when it airs... that alone will make me happier than anything.
That’s honestly how I feel.
There’s been noise, and I needed to explain a few things,
but in the end the money, the rights, all that will find their place.
I’m not attached to those things anymore.
The days I bled for this project will be recognized in their own way — and that’s enough for me.
I once wrote in a 2022 diary about how it all began.
At a café in Nakano Broadway, I overheard a producer from Yostar Pictures, Mr. Inagaki, talking about me.
Half joking, I went up and introduced myself.
From that moment he took a strong interest in my work, and that’s where the idea for the anime started.
Later I sent him a script, and from that came "夢充夜".
The director, Mr. Nakajima, who worked on that short, would go on to direct this anime as well.
So, from that day in Nakano Broadway, the path toward the anime had already begun, quietly continuing behind the scenes.
Aniplex joined the project partway through.
From then on, I wrote scripts every week, sometimes keeping everyone up late while I lost my mind over the manuscript.
In the end, I completed all thirteen episodes.
I worked hard.
After that, I had many long talks with Director Nakajima.
He fought endlessly to recreate the world inside my head.
He read my note essays over and over, trying to understand me as a person — sometimes better than I understand myself, which is a bit unsettling.
I’m truly grateful to him.
Sometimes staff would bring me their ideas, saying,
“We thought you’d like this, Mr. Nyalra.”
Whenever I reacted honestly, they’d smile too.
That small exchange of joy made me happy.
When you entrust your creation to others, every response becomes a test, and every joy a kind of relief.
For me, it’s enough just knowing that they care about the characters and the world we built.
The first design I received from Nakajima’s team was this background.
It was stunning.
When Mr.Inagaki and I looked at it, we said, “Hard to believe it’s been two years already.”
The fact that the first background they made for me was inspired by Mondrian...
that was the moment I knew I could trust these people completely.
In Mondrian’s balance of primary colors, I saw everything I’ve ever pursued.
Then came the merry-go-round.
You might recognize it from the announcement PV.
I wonder what scene it will appear in? Please look forward to it.
Both the Mondrian and the merry-go-round are overflowing with love.
No other anime is made this way.
It’s going to be something incredible — and it already is.
The theatrical preview will be in March,
and the broadcast begins in April.
Please look forward to it.
I’m a hated figure on the internet, a person of questionable character, to put it lightly.
Over the past few years, I’ve given everything to this game and anime,
but even that isn’t enough to atone for my mistakes.
Pouring myself into this anime and suffering through it was my way of making amends.
And through that pain, something unique was born.
The NEEDY anime will be a gravestone for the social media era.
I doubt we’ll see another work of this scale about the internet anytime soon.
It captures the entire atmosphere of the NicoNico and SNS generation — its joy and its sorrow alike.
It embraces pain and pleasure beyond morality.
Maybe the next work of this kind will come only after the social media age ends,
when someone even lonelier creates something new.
Until then, NEEDY will carry that weight.
A distorted piece of subculture that shouldn’t exist.
A patchwork of flesh stitched together from despair.
A Christ figure wounded by the love and hatred of every anime icon online.
And somehow, a delinquent kid from Okinawa ended up making it.
A mistaken miracle... but the world chose this crooked angel anyway.
Somehow, Ohisashiburi and Aiobahn are still here with me in this twisted toy box.
Fans and haters, supporters and hecklers...
I want to turn all of it into one big firework.
Thirteen episodes of laughter, criticism, reflection, and contradiction.
Let’s do it all.
There won’t be another firework like this again.
And if I burn out and turn to ash afterward, that’s fine too.
Honestly, with the amount of stress I’ve been under, it’s a miracle I’m still alive.
Half of my journal this year is about wanting to die.
But I’ve done my best — truly.
So let’s watch the fireworks together.
Mock me all you want.
Or act like a critic and say, “That line actually hits.”
For one short cour, just play with me,
the clown of the internet, the “wriggling creep” you all love to hate —
in the strange amusement park I dreamed of.
That’s all I want.
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